Social butterfly

This weekend was my sister's wedding. She was a beautiful bride! And the whole thing was wonderful. The kids were all so well behaved, they were excited for Kim and Ben, I was so proud of my wonderful family.

TJ was the ringbearer, even though there were no rings, and he didn't walk down the aisle, he was a hit with his orange gym shoes!

Adam Jr. and I were dancing to the Cha-Cha slide at one point, and he was having a great time talking with everyone and dancing and eating TWO pieces of cake. He looked at me and said, "Remember when you and daddy got married and I was shy. I wouldn't talk to anyone. Now look, I am not shy at all when Kim and Ben got married!"

Nope buddy, you're not. You are growing up right before my very eyes. They all are.

And it made me think of all the opposite emotions I feel about them growing up, and what my parents and Ben's parents must have been feeling on Saturday as well. I feel both happy and sad simultaneously as that happens. Proud of them, yet embarrassed about all the million ways I am sure I have failed them. Excited for their future, and fearful of it at the same time. I ask how can I hold on and let go at the same time, and know that I only partially can. I hope that as they grown up, they find love and look to their future in the same happy optimistic way I saw Kim and Ben look ahead this weekend. I also hope that they look back a little too. And when they do, I hope they remember times like these and know that they are loved by so many!